The power of positivity

7 months ago, I remember getting the news of my thyroid cancer and thinking I would just stay broken into a million pieces for the entire time until I get good news. Well, here we are. I have had a week full of doctor appointments, and now my full body scan is in 2 days. I won’t find out the results for 10 days after that, but I have survived so far. I couldn’t have gotten through this without all of the support that I’ve had throughout the process. I’m not “in the clear” just yet and I am nervous, but I know that regardless, I am surrounded by POSITIVITY, friends, family, love and prayers, and that is helping more than I could possibly even express in words. I’m not sure what the outcome will be, but I now know that I am stronger than I ever thought was even possible for me and that I have an army of people who will be my strength, when I don’t have it. I have had Wes & a couple of friends who have gone to doctor’s appointments, and countless other people that I know would go with me if they could, no matter how small the appointment is. I’ve been surrounded by so much love and support over these past few months, that it really shows me that my friendships are growing. For the first time in my life, I know I have grown as a person. Not just because people have told me how strong I’ve been through all of this, but I can feel the change in me. I really feel like for the first time in my entire life, I have TRUE friends. Friends that I can be myself around & who love me for who I am (not just what I can do for them) and that is a POSITIVE thing. I never thought I’d say this, but even in this entire process, the past couple of months that I expected to be the hardest, have been some of the HAPPIEST points I’ve had in my life & that is amazing. I finally feel like I’m back to my old self. I am more involved in things that used to be really important to me that I had put on the back burner (like helping people) because I had helped so many people that basically demanded and expected it of me. Now I’m doing what I feel like is good in the world because *I* want to again and I love it and that has changed me back to my old self in a very POSITIVE way. I didn’t realize how much I had lost myself over the years and spent so much time investing in people because it was expected, and I love that I am feeling happy again. Yes, I still have bad days, but I hope that if I get a good result from my scan in a couple of weeks that I will be able to finally relax even more and enjoy life even more. Everyone says that when you go through something traumatic in life, you realize who you can count on and it’s nice to finally look around and I’m not alone. I love life right now and I’m hoping that if I can keep up a POSITIVE attitude & keep giving back to people for the right reasons, that good things will come my way. I am POSITIVE that God has a reason for everything I’ve been through over the past few months (and even the past few years), and I am so happy to know that I have complete faith in His plan for my life. 

“Sometimes you gotta stop worrying, wondering and doubting. Have faith that things will work out. Maybe not how you planned, but how they were meant to be”