Meant To Be Lindsey B

It’s April already??? How did that happen?

It’s April already??? How did that happen? So, it may appear that I have been MIA lately, but if you follow me on social media, you probably have noticed that I shifted my focus to concentrate from writing to focusing more on making YouTube videos… and have still been making a lot of appearances. The […]

New Year, New Adventures

It’s April already??? How did that happen?

It's April already??? How did that happen? So, it may appear that I have been MIA lately, but if you follow me on social media, you probably have noticed that I shifted my focus to concentrate from writing to focusing more on making YouTube videos... and have still been making a lot of appearances. The YouTube videos are something I have wanted to do for awhile and the timing just felt right to start doing them, so I dove right in. They have been well-received so far which is really exciting! I … [Read More...]

Stop trying to heal me

When I started writing my blog 4 1/2 years ago, I had made a promise to myself that I would never just become ONLY a disability writer. Every now and then though, something happens that makes me go: I was at the Country Radio Seminar this week, which is pretty much just a giant 3-day concert with educational sessions for people in the music industry. It's pretty awesome. I've been 2 years in a row now and it's one of the only times each year that emerging people (like myself) in the music … [Read More...]

Dealing with the past… Living in the present… Hoping for the best future.

The title of this pretty much says it all. Dealing with the past... Living in the present... Hoping for the best future. If you've read some of my posts, by now you know that I am very open about my anxiety these days. I don't share these feelings for sympathy though. I share them so that others facing similar feelings know that they aren't alone. Over the past couple of months in particular though, my anxiety has popped up stronger than it has in a long, long time. I am at a point where I feel … [Read More...]

I swear I’m leading a double life…

Right now, I feel like I am leading a double (maybe even a triple) life. I am bouncing between projects and groups and I'm struggling to find balance, but I don't actually want to settle on one thing. Maybe we are all searching for balance, but I thought that by age 32 that I would have found it. Don't get me wrong... I love being able to be a part of such rewarding experiences and projects and things that are unique, challenging and different every week, but it also gets exhausting emotionally. … [Read More...]

New Year, New Adventures

Happy New Year, everyone! As usual, I have been a busy, busy bee. Since I finally had some down time to reflect on 2017 and what I want to try to accomplish in 2018, I figured it was time for a little bit of writing... Although I intentionally slowed down a little bit in December to focus on a lot of other things behind-the-scenes coming up and spending some time connecting with family and friends, it still ended up being pretty eventful. While I know that this entry kind of falls into my … [Read More...]

That girl in the wheelchair

Several months ago, my husband and I were at a hockey game when suddenly, everything around me just stopped. I had gotten word through social media that the world had lost a beautiful soul. I had known Kimmie for literally half my life. It didn't seem real. There are days that it still doesn't... I was so confused. Kimmie was a wheelchair user due to Muscular Dystrophy, but she had seemingly been in great health when we had last seen her. I have been trying to find the words to express my … [Read More...]

More adventures with MWTN 2018

Whew! I can't believe I was crowned a little over 2 months ago already! The time is flying by, but I am loving the experience so far. Since I last updated, my schedule has been full of new experiences and adventures. I now have 12 events under my sash and at least 4 more between now and the end of January right now. I have put together an amazing lineup of 3 musicians and 3 comedians for my Music/Comedy event at Zanies Nashville. There will be silent auction/raffle with some awesome items. … [Read More...]

Disability Does NOT Equal Inability

I have had something on my heart that I want to share. This is no way meant to boast. In the past month as Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee, I have already been exposed to so many unique and interesting opportunities and I have experienced emotional growth in a way that I have never experienced before. This got my thinking about my platform... In my life, I have had so many incredible opportunities. I have traveled all over the country and even into other countries. I met the love of my life. I was … [Read More...]

I need your help!

Hey y'all! I will be competing for the title of Ms. Wheelchair America 2019 in Grand Rapids, MI in August and I need your help! I am currently seeking sponsorship to compete and I am also planning a comedy/music event as well at some point this year to help me raise the funds needed. If you are interested in contributing in any way, please e-mail me at LindseyBeckerMWTN2018@hotmail.com or you can click the gofundme link below. Funds will need to be raised by May 2018 and will go toward my entry … [Read More...]

My platform: The Importance of Resources and Finding Your Own Way To Shine

In the past 2 weeks, I have consistently been asked 2 questions: "What are your goals?" and "What is your platform?" I want to take some time and start by sharing the speech that I delivered at the Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee 2018 pageant... "We all face challenges, but without resources like ABLE Youth, Easter Seals and the Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee pageant, I wouldn't be where I am today. These organizations all exposed me at a young age to others who faced similar challenges. They helped me … [Read More...]

2 weeks of being an official “Pwinkie”

I am now 12 days into my reign and with 3 appearances/events under my sash. I can honestly say that my life has already changed in some incredible ways. I knew that this title would have the ability to create some pretty amazing opportunities, but as I sit and reflect on the amazing things that have already happened in the past week and a half, I am grateful... I am grateful that so many people want to play a part in helping me create special memories. I am so grateful to have people that … [Read More...]

Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee 2018

Hey y'all! Now that everything has settled down for a minute, I wanted to take some time to give you an update and to also announce that as of Saturday night, I officially became Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee 2018! You can view the full crowing ceremony in the video below. It's really strange to be able to say that I finally accomplished a 16-year goal. I don't know who was happier between me and my husband once the result was announced. The women that I shared the stage with left a lasting … [Read More...]

My first video blog. Enjoy!

Thank you so much for all of the love and support! I had a lot to say and figured this was the best way. I love and appreciate you all so much! Don't forget that there's still time to vote for the People's Choice award as well. You can vote for me by clicking here (Voting closes at noon EST on Saturday, September 30th, 2017.) … [Read More...]

Papa Stan strikes again

I can only describe what happened last night as another meant to be sign that my grandfather decided to send me. I know that what I am about to tell you all is probably going to sound crazy, but it actually gave me a sense of peace. I apologize in advance for repeating myself to those of you that have been keeping up. As you all know by now, I decided to compete again in the Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee pageant. It was a decision that I originally had gone back and forth on, because I honestly took … [Read More...]

An open letter to a society that has stopped listening…

I tend to try to stay publicly neutral when it comes to hot topic issues, but for some reason this is what is on my heart... My actual stance on these issues is irrelevant. That's not the point of the message I want to share right now. I have a million other things that I could be doing for myself right now, but I felt like this needed to be read by someone. I'm hoping and praying that it makes a difference for at least one person. Right now, as fired up as I am about all of the things that I … [Read More...]

#TeamPwinkie

If you follow me on social media or keep up with me on here, you might have seen me mention that I competed in the Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee pageant last year. Although the outcome did not end up quite the way that I had hoped for, it was not all in vain. After some reflecting and a lot of praying, I decided to compete again this year for the title of Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee 2018. It is now 19 days away and is very much on my mind and my heart. I don't know if this will be "my year" or not, … [Read More...]

Enabling vs. Empowering

Last week, I was asked to be a part of an adult discussion panel for the Spina Bifida Education Day in Nashville. I can honestly say that it was an eye-opening experience. In this panel, I heard so many stories from people with Spina Bifida (and their parents) talk about the parents basically just doing things for them just because it's easier for everyone. It sounds reasonable in theory... until you think about the fact that parents don't live forever... I don't mean for this to sound harsh, … [Read More...]

Just an update

I realized I haven't done an actual update on my life for you all since my grandfather passed a couple of months ago, so I'll catch you all up on my life... If you follow me on social media, you might know all of this already... If so, go check out my last post Total Eclipse In Our Hearts . For everyone else... Here's the latest... This Saturday, I am going to be a part of an adult discussion panel for Spina Bifida Education Day in Nashville. I'm pretty excited because I love to share my … [Read More...]

Total Eclipse In Our Hearts

As I was reflecting on today's total eclipse and how amazing and wonderful it felt, I was reminded of how the Universe was created and the fact that it all functions so harmoniously. If you think about it (no matter what you believe), it's pretty incredible. The fact that every so often we get the opportunity to experience the beautiful phenomenon of light and dark coming together to create a moment like that is incredible to me. For that brief period, it removed me momentarily from everything … [Read More...]

A “meant to be” COINcidence

Last week, I had a very strange and cool thing happen... I was at a concert when I received a message on Facebook from a woman named Cat. She had bought a handmade bowl at an estate sale a little over a week ago and she had gotten curious about the history of the bowl. She googled the artist's name and my grandfather's obituary as well as my blog, "Honey Bucket", came up in the search. When she realized that this might be my grandfather's work, she reached out to me. She was very sweet and … [Read More...]

Stepping Stones

After a much-needed personal break from music promotion (and some re-grouping), I was feeling a bit discouraged. I felt like I had lost my mojo and I felt like even though I was ready to go full steam ahead again, I still felt like I wasn't getting anywhere... but then... earlier this week, I had an awesome friend who set me up with a meeting with the owner/CEO of Dark Horse Studios. I was so nervous because I had never had the opportunity to sit down with someone that was this important to the … [Read More...]

Your support is needed!

Hey y'all! This is a little different from my normal posts. I just wanted to let you all know that I have decided to compete in the Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee pageant again this year in the Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee pageant. Advocacy is EXTREMELY important to me. This program and everything that it and the title of Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee represents is very dear to my heart. Winning the title of Ms. Wheelchair Tennessee 2018 would be an honor, because it has always been a dream of mine to … [Read More...]

Curveballs

I'm going to preface this entire entry by saying that I have NO idea if this one will benefit anyone other than myself, but I like to document times like this because it helps me keep perspective and look back on times and be grateful for positive things that have happened since. I like to write in a way that others can relate, but sometimes I just need to vent too. Just know that if you're trying to deal with your own curveballs, you'll get there. Sometimes progress is just slow and that's … [Read More...]

Finding Light At The End Of A Tunnel

tunnel: verb "dig or force a passage underground or through something." When I started blogging about 4 years ago, I did it out of survival. I never expected anyone to actually read my words. Then, I would randomly run into someone that I hadn't seen in awhile and they would ask about it or mention that they love reading it. I'm still blown away by this. When I started writing, I did it because I literally didn't know what else to do with the feelings I was dealing … [Read More...]

“Honey Bucket”

I have been sitting here for days, trying to even think about where I wanted to begin with this entry. My grandfather passed away this week and I am directly in the middle of the storm emotionally and literally (as it is actually physically storming right now as I write this). My grandfather had been sick for a very long time and even though his passing was inevitable at some point, I wasn't prepared. I have experienced grief before, but nothing comes close to the feelings that I have been … [Read More...]

An open letter to Keith Urban…

As all of my readers know by now, I was diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer in 2013. Today is actually my 4 year "cancerversary". I never knew that something could change my life so much, but there was something (well... someone...) that changed my life in an equally powerful way. I don't think it's a coincidence that he is playing a show in Nashville that I will be at on my "cancerversary"... and I feel like today is a perfect day to share this in the form of an open letter to him: Keith … [Read More...]

Anxious Mind, Giving Heart

I recently wrote about Fear & Anxiety, but I realized that I left out some crucial parts of what it's like for the people experiencing the anxiety... especially the ones with an anxious mind and giving heart. This is probably the biggest, most consistent obstacle that I deal with as someone who experiences anxiety. It affects my daily life. It affects my marriage... and it definitely affects my friendships... especially the ones I care the most about. I care so much about people and making … [Read More...]

Inspirational Porn

I've talked a lot about disability and society's views of disabilities, but I wanted to share something that I see regularly on social media: Inspirational Porn. According to Wikipedia: "Inspirational porn" is the calling of people with disabilities inspirational solely or in part on the basis of their disability.[1][2] The term was coined in 2012 by disability rights activist Stella Young in an editorial in Australian Broadcasting Corporation's webzine Ramp Up.[3]" If you're still confused, … [Read More...]

Understand & Unite

So many times, I sit back and watch the news and I hear and see horrible things and it simply breaks my heart. The news is filled with so many stories of blatant disrespect, disregard and misunderstanding. I also see stories of misrepresentation in the disabled community. I never thought that in 2017, that I would see so many people get treated less than or like we're a pity project. I can't speak for the entire disability community, but this is my view. We're not *all* looking for a cure (some … [Read More...]

A thank you to those who have taught me valuable life lessons.

In life, we are taught valuable lessons. We don't like to remember or re-live the hard lessons. We usually just like to keep the knowledge we gained from them. The truth is that we NEED those hard lessons. We need them to grow into who we are MEANT TO BE. I've shared some of these on some level before, but I really felt like I needed to share what I actually have learned from some of them. As much as some of these things actually hurt me in the moment, they also truly helped me grow on some … [Read More...]

If you're seeing this post, congratulations... you officially understand how the internet works! In all seriousness though... like with anything else in life, there comes a time for change and it was time for a change and more growth for myself. I decided that my blog deserved a home for more growth and potential to be more than just a little blog. This site is the new home for my blog. I hope you enjoy it and the new look! If you find that there are issues with accessing anything, please send … [Read More...]

Fear & Anxiety

Fear and anxiety are 2 very powerful feelings. Although they seem different, they are also very similar in how they can affect a person. If you've never faced a fear that you couldn't conquer (or you've never experienced anxiety), count your blessings. Both fear and anxiety are paralyzing at times, if you aren't willing to face them or be honest about what they stem from. Anxiety triggers fear and vice versa. Anxiety in particular can affect a completely seemingly normal-functioning adult in a … [Read More...]

In Sickness & In Health

In a marriage, we make vows to love each other in sickness and in health, but I'd venture to say that if either you or your spouse weren't sick at the time of your marriage, you don't really think about "What if something happens to them?" Maybe you do, but I'm going to go out on a limb and say that none of us really want to look into the future and see the bad things that are coming. We want to focus on the good things to come... and we should! After awhile though, you start to get comfortable … [Read More...]

Embracing our differences

I was recently having a conversation with a comedian friend of mine, Nemr (nemrcomedy.com), after one of his shows this past weekend and we were talking about differences and similarities in our upbringing and backgrounds. He is an Arabic Christian from the country of Lebanon... and although our cultural backgrounds are different, we very much have common ground. It hadn't occurred to him, but as a disabled female, to some degree, I am an outsider in many circumstances myself. I get … [Read More...]

1,001 Days Later

As my 1,001 Days has ended to "officially" complete my 101 Things, I wanted to take a moment to reflect and share what I've learned. I ended up completing 83 of 101 things. Although I was unable to complete the other 18 things on my list in the time frame, I'm not going to stop trying to complete my list. I still have things I am actively working on and I still plan to complete my entire list. As a reminder, click here for my full list with the official progress I've made.The first and one of … [Read More...]

Nashville Rescue Mission

As you all probably know by now, I started a 101 Things in 1,001 Days list that I've been completing over the past 2+ years as a way to cope with my thyroid cancer diagnosis. My list is random, (but important to me on different levels), but there is a section of my list that has very little to do with me personally (or so I thought). It's the fact that I wanted to get involved in my community and grow as a person through volunteering and giving back. I believe, that we get back good when we put … [Read More...]

Things to NOT say or do to a person in a wheelchair

This blog is going to be a bit different from my normal entries. I not only want to help people in my personal life and community, but I also want to help others understand more about the disabled community in general, because I feel like the more understanding we can have, the more compassion we can have for one another. In my 31 years on this earth as a disabled person, I have encountered people from all walks of life. Some people are comfortable with the chair after getting to know me, … [Read More...]

Born into circumstances vs. life-changing circumstances

I tried to come up with a catchy title, but I just couldn't. This topic has popped up a lot for me in the past few years and I finally felt like it was time to just put it out there. As I've shared before, I was born with a disability called Spina Bifida... and then in 2013, I was diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer. Over the past 3 1/2 years since my cancer diagnosis, I've had a ton of incredible support, but I've also had a lot of unsolicited feedback on the fact that people think that the cancer … [Read More...]

Inspiration

In light of all of the recent celebrity deaths, I started thinking about this topic. As usual, this topic kept coming up and God kept laying this message on my heart. I started thinking about the word "inspiration". Who inspires you? Why do they inspire you? Have you ever had a chance or taken the time to tell them how or why they inspire you? If not... why not? Life is short. What do you have to lose? It doesn't have to be a celebrity. It can be a family member. It can be a stranger. The source … [Read More...]

Growth

God always has a way of putting a message on my heart so that I can share it with others... and then He continues finding ways to make it impossible to ignore the message... and then I come here to share it with each of you. This is one of those times.In the past 3 1/2 years since my diagnosis (Wow! Time flies!), I have experienced growth. Growth through experiences (good and bad). I continue every day on my quest for even more personal growth. For some people, it's financial growth. For others, … [Read More...]

What if?

"What if I tell that person that I like them/something about them?" "What if I take the risk and go after my dream job, instead of just the safe option?" "What if I try something and fail at it?" What if all of our potential was only held back by our own thoughts? What if instead of letting our negative mindsets and self-doubt take all of the control, we took the time to take action toward just trying to make things happen for ourselves. I am the first to admit that I "what if" about things in … [Read More...]

Shine On Music City

This entry is a little different from what most of you are used to seeing from me. I recently connected with someone who wants to possibly use my story as part of an inspiring docu-series. For awhile now, I have wanted to figure out what I would want my legacy to be when I leave this earth. No one else on this planet has a story that is exactly like mine, although I'm sure others have their own "meant to be" stories. First, here is a little history on me (for those of you who might not have read … [Read More...]

Power of Prayer

Sometimes we forget that God will always provide for us, especially if what our heart desires is in His plan for us. Sometimes it's not in a way you expected or the way you really wanted, but it always works out in the end, because He loves us and wants what's best for us. I wanted to share with you all my very real moment with God. Over the past couple of weeks, I've been considering starting up a 2nd blog/site, featuring up and coming artists in the music industry to help them get their music … [Read More...]

Beauty

Thanks to the media and how it portrays what is considered "beautiful", I have spent a couple of months stuck on this topic, trying to come up with something meaningful to say about it. I think the reason I've struggled with writing on this subject is because it's impossible to find one meaningful definition, but this is what I've come up with so far. What is beauty?Webster's Dictionary defines beauty as: : the quality of being physically attractiveor: the qualities in a person or a thing that … [Read More...]

The 20 most important things I’ve learned so far in my journey with thyroid cancer

I have been wracking my brain for some blog ideas recently (since I've been really slacking over the past couple of months) & in my infinite wisdom (lol)...I wanted to end this year on a positive note, and I finally decided that I should just share with you all what I've learned (so far) in the my journey with thyroid cancer. DISCLAIMER: It may not all seem positive, but it has truly been a learning experience; and to me... anytime you can learn something (even if it seems like you had to learn … [Read More...]

God’s plans are bigger than our own

I always knew that I had a passion for music... It's pretty obvious to anyone who has ever interacted with me... but after my most recent birthday and meeting Keith Urban & after developing a very good friendship with a girl (ironically, also named Lindsey) who works as an Entertainment Attorney and has the same passion for music that I have.... I realized I NEED to pursue something in the music industry. The week after my birthday, Wes came home to me in tears (yes... TEARS) because I realized … [Read More...]

Support

I will apologize now, in case this entry is a lot like my "Blessings" post from December. God had truly blessed me with so many amazing experiences and people in my life, that I felt like I needed to express it in this entry. Can you believe it is September already? This year sure has flown by! I have to share some exciting news... For my birthday in August, my husband had gotten us tickets to a Keith Urban concert in Atlanta (by now, if you've read my 101 things in 1,001 days, you would have … [Read More...]

Creating & making the most of your life & your own experiences

I love when a subject crosses my mind to write about and then it continues to pop up in my life, in a very "meant to be" way. Since my 2nd thyroid surgery, I have been trying to make the most of life and gain some new life experiences over the past year to not only keep me busy, but to just make some new, happy memories that could possibly overshadow the pain of this diagnosis (emotional and physical). I'm not saying you should always just distract yourself from your issues in life, but I also … [Read More...]

Fears

What if the cancer returns?What if the cancer spreads?What if I can't have children?What if my husband gets tired of me and dealing with all of this?What if this 2nd surgery doesn't work?These are the immediate fears that come to mind when I start worrying about my prognosis with thyroid cancer, especially since I just went through a 2nd surgery to remove more nodules about 2 1/2 weeks ago. For the past year, I thought I was handling my diagnosis pretty well overall... and for as much of a … [Read More...]

101 Things in 1,001 Days

So a friend of mine posted a 101 things in 1,001 days list of things he would like to do in 1,001 days and I loved the idea, and decided it would be a great way to help me cope with my Thyroid Cancer diagnosis, so I made my own. I'm loving this experience and I've already faced one of my biggest fears (a ferris wheel). Here are my 101 things. **** denotes that they are completed. YELLOW denotes in progress. I will update this list as I go along, so you all can see my progress. I have from June … [Read More...]

Bettering yourself

So a friend of mine posted a 101 things in 1,001 days list of things he would like to do in 1,001 days and I loved the idea, so I made my own. I'll post that as its' own blog post in a minute, but one of the things I had put on my own list proved to be harder than I ever thought it would be, which made me sad, but the one thing was "Make a list of 25 things I like about myself"... I thought piece of cake! Wrong! It's harder than it seems. I encourage everyone to make their own because it does … [Read More...]

One year later

I haven't written much lately. It's that time of year where schedules get busy & I travel a lot. I haven't really felt the need to vent my feelings for the most part. I'm thinking & hoping that is a sign of emotional growth & acceptance of my situation. 1 year and 1 week ago I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. It's crazy how time flies. I found out officially last week (via an ultrasound) that even after a total thyroidectomy & 2 rounds of RAI-131 radiation, I am facing … [Read More...]

Seeking what you need in life.

So my goal in starting my blog was to help others along the way. Lately I've been so busy with life and just trying to stay busy, that I haven't written anything in a long time. I have a few ideas for topics hopefully soon, but in the meantime, I thought I'd give you all an update...I had my full body scan done back in January. It came back still showing SOMETHING was there and without having to do further testing, we decided it would just be best to go forward and go ahead and do another … [Read More...]

The power of positivity

7 months ago, I remember getting the news of my thyroid cancer and thinking I would just stay broken into a million pieces for the entire time until I get good news. Well, here we are. I have had a week full of doctor appointments, and now my full body scan is in 2 days. I won't find out the results for 10 days after that, but I have survived so far. I couldn't have gotten through this without all of the support that I've had throughout the process. I'm not "in the clear" just yet and I am … [Read More...]

Blessings

Just a quick update on my health stuff. I go in the week of Jan 12th, 2014 to prepare for my body scan, which will be on January 17th, 2014. I am nervous, but I am going into this thing a little more prepared and a little more positive than I probably was 6 months ago, because I am prepared for the worst and hoping for the best. Please keep me in your thoughts & prayers during that time that I get good results a couple of weeks after that! It has been a long journey, but I know God is … [Read More...]

The Chive

I know I mentioned this in my last post in November, but I am going to repeat this part of my last blog post, because this has become such a special part of my life over the past 2 months. This group is truly amazing and have made some of the hardest couple of months in my life much easier to bare... "I have to separate this part from the rest, because I am so beyond thankful this came into my life, but... I'm so, SO thankful for the Nashville Chive group. This group came into my life at the … [Read More...]

Thankful

In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I decided it was time to blog about what I'm thankful for...It isn't always easy to see the bright side of things when you are consumed with only seeing the negative side of things. I'm sure a lot of people have been guilty of that at some point in their lives, when it seems like there is no end in sight, things aren't getting better and you feel like it never will. Since June, I've found myself going through peaks and valleys of depression, sadness, confusion, and … [Read More...]

Happy Veterans Day!

Got in just under the wire, with 7 minutes to spare. First off, Happy Veterans Day! I'm so proud to be married to a veteran that served our country. It's hard to not sound generic on anything I could possibly say about the men & women serving our country. I have never personally lost someone to a war or fighting for our country (thankfully), so that's not what this entry is going to be about. I just wanted to acknowledge the date, because I am very proud of my friends, family, and especially … [Read More...]

Turning a negative into a positive

Awhile back, I had made up my mind that I wasn't going to let my situation with my thyroid cancer control me. I started putting together an event in Nashville at the Listening Room to raise money for research and awareness. I'm going to have several amazing bands/musicians, as well as raffle prizes that night. I've been working on this event for awhile, but I thought I'd share this info with my readers. You can check out the info on the event at … [Read More...]

Being vulnerable: It’s okay to let people see the “real” you…

I've found myself in a very vulnerable place in the past few months. I've been faced with some realizations with life lately. I've always wanted and tried my best to be the person that goes out of my way to offer my friendship and support to people who I think might need it in their own times of weakness, but one thing I don't usually do is reach out when I need help, especially emotionally. I might talk about my situations openly with people, but I try not to ask much of people, because I … [Read More...]

Strength

I have a friends that are going through or that have family going through medical issues right now, which is what provoked this entry... When I say strength, I don't necessarily mean physical strength, but emotional strength...As a general rule, men are emotionally stronger acting than women, but I must say that as much as I sometimes wish that men knew how to be more emotional, there are times I'm truly thankful that I am married to such a logically-minded man. I can honestly say that he … [Read More...]

Having a passion: Being passionate & emotional

I'm not talking about passion in the romantic sense, although, I suppose that could go along with this entry as well too...It seems like if you're passionate and supportive of something, especially towards something or someone in the entertainment industry (music, dance, etc)... people seem to take it the wrong way or think you're just a crazy fan when you're extremely supportive. I'm obsessed (literally OBSESSED) with good music and dance though too. I wish I could be a famous singer and … [Read More...]

Having faith

This has been on my mind for awhile now. As positive as try to be in my life and trust & have faith in God that he has the direction for my life, I'm sure I (like many other people) can get a little off track, whether it's in your walk with Christ if you're a Christian, or you just allow yourself to get off track from a goal you're trying to reach... At times it's easy to get distracted with life. For me, at times, I lean on others to help me get back on … [Read More...]

September is Thyroid Cancer Awareness Month.

If you follow my personal facebook page or my Meant to be facebook page, you've already seen this message, so I apologize for repetitiveness.September is Thyroid Cancer Awareness Month. Since I've been dealing with my own Thyroid Cancer since June, it really makes me want to raise awareness. This isn't the only website out there. There are lots of them. If you have a history of Thyroid Cancer in your family, please do yourself and your family a favor and get checked for it yourself. It can … [Read More...]

Marriage: Honesty, Respect & Love

A lot of people have come to either me or Wes or both when they are struggling in their marriage or relationship, I know I've touched on being honest in friendships and how that can be perceived as a negative thing, but I wanted to write more about marriage & how honesty can make or break a relationship and most importantly how to make each other happier in your relationship. I apologize in advance, because some of this is repetitive to a previous entry, but they are really important things … [Read More...]

Recovering

Recovery from my recent thyroid cancer removal surgery has been one of the hardest things, emotionally and physically for me to deal with. I am starting to feel more like myself, but I still have concerns, especially since I'm having to play "the waiting game" until near the end of the years, when they will finally do a full body scan and see if the cancer is gone. I can't live in fear for the next 4 months, but I'm still terrified, because even though I took all the appropriate steps, I still … [Read More...]

Friendship: Honesty, forgiving & giving too much

I fully believe that everything is meant to be and that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes we just can't seem to clearly see the reason why some things happen at first. I have been in friendships and relationships in the past, where I felt like I looked back at them and thought "What was the point of that?" Now, being more self-aware and added to the fact that I am a very spiritual person, and trust that God knows what He's doing in my life, I can typically see the … [Read More...]

A little bit about little ‘ole me

Since I can't sleep... After I dove right into spilling my heart out on the screen to you all, right off the bat, I realized tonight that I hadn't really done an actual introduction of myself to those of you who don't know me personally (or for those of you who want to know more, but don't feel like reading the long blogs I've written in the past. For those of you who haven't read my previous blogs, I really started this whole blog as a way to not only openly and honestly share my experiences … [Read More...]

Music.. Good for the soul

For those of you who don't know me personally, you might not be able to tell just yet, but I am HUGE lover of music. Music is good for the soul & the heart. It can tell a story you can relate to or evoke emotions. I listen to music as a release, or during "me" time, to get me moving in the morning or just to make me feel better & get my in a better place emotionally. I was in choir in school growing up & I've taken private lessons at different times in my life. … [Read More...]

Confidence

Confidence...So easy for me in some aspects of my life... So hard for me in others. The 2 biggest struggles I have with confidence is the fear of failing at something & comparing myself to others.I find myself keeping myself from going after my goals at times because I'm scared of failure. It has nothing to do with my disability. It has to do with being a perfectionist, and if I can't work out all the kinks ahead of time, I tend to give up as soon as it gets tough or doesn't turn out just … [Read More...]

Being disabled and society’s view… “We” aren’t that different from everyone else.

Ok, so this won't exactly seem like it fits with the whole "meant to be" theme as I get into this one... but... but I will say I KNOW I was meant to be disabled... Sounds silly, right? Not to me...Let me explain a little bit about my disability first though... I was born with a disability called Spina Bifida. It is basically where your spinal cord & the column fails to close properly. Because of that, I use a wheelchair. I learned to walk at age 3... I … [Read More...]

The “C” word

"Cancer"... One of the scariest words next to "death", in my opinion... It's something no one wants to face and it's not something anyone really can be totally prepared for (in the beginning anyway), I believe, no matter what TYPE of cancer it is. It's scary and can be life changing. Wes & I have been trying to conceive since about 9 months after we got married... As I mentioned before, I did in fact get pregnant once, but it wasn't a healthy pregnancy... After that, we took time off from … [Read More...]

Why everything is “meant to be”…

DISCLAIMER: This one, is very, very, VERY long...but... I decided to start writing my blog, as a way to remember the feelings and emotions I've gone through while dealing with my Thyroid Cancer...as a way of coping and healing and moving forward... but I thought I'd explain why "Meant to be" came to my mind as my overall title for my blog... In my life, I've had so many things happen that I can't explain, except that they were just "meant to be" or as I also call it "God's plan" or "God's … [Read More...]

Met a real survivor tonight.

I plan on doing a blog on just my entire Thyroid Cancer process (I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Papillary Thyroid Cancer in June... I will do a blog on that probably next, because it is a significant part of my life. Wes & I decided to make it out to see one of our favorite singers at Bluebird Café tonight. We weren’t even sure we would even get a reservation, but there was one spot left, so they let us reserve a table anyway… We were planning to leave right … [Read More...]

Meeting Wes (and our back story)

This will be my first blog entry, because it is one of the most significant things that has happened in my life. I hope you all enjoy this blog and many others. I apologize now, because I tend to be a very long-winded, detailed person... So continue on, if you wish... Back in 2005, I was dating a guy... Things were okay at the time, but we eventually broke up after a little over a year, but during that time, I met Wes (my husband)... He was in a wheelchair due to a SCI (spinal cord … [Read More...]

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